Happy Halloween!

This weekend I was able to go home! It made me so happy because I am so tired of school, and just everything. Well this weekend was halloween weekend. Today being Halloween but I'm back at school :P yay....NOT! Anywho, on Saturday I was able to go to a dance party with my wonderful boyfriend! We dressed up as Sandy and Danny from Grease! I must say we looked fine! Needless to say the trip home was much needed.  I have been having a very difficult time wanting to stay at BYU.  my roommate is awful, I have no friends, and I'm failing a class that isn't required anywhere else.  Seeing little Jack run into my room to cuddle with me made me happier than I have been in a while. 

Ya! I'm pretty hot! :) 

Money Can't Buy Happiness

It is said that money can't buy happiness but this gets pretty darn close! :) 

I was feeling kinda down the other day and depressed cause the food was disgusting, and so I went to the store because I hadn't eaten a pickle in a very very long time! So I bought some and they made me happier than I had been all day, maybe even all weekend! :) 

Parent Appreciation

Ok so, this weekend was really hard for me! My roommates mom came to visit for parents weekend! This was a challenge because my roommate treated her mom like crap! I mean her mom is working 3 jobs just so she could get enough money to come out, and my roommate didn't even giver her a hug! She didn't want to spend anytime with her and even told her to her face that she didn't want her here.  Her mom is still working her butt off so Jen can come home for Thanksgiving.  This makes me so angry! I mean honestly! Cut your mom some slack! She cares about you, she might not be the best mom in the world but she cares! My roommate has been going out with her boyfriend for over 2 years and her mom has known about it the whole time.  When her mom got the dorm she looked at Jen and said I know you had pictures up of Kyle all over the place. And Jen just sat there like whatever mom, she looked at me and with her facial expression was like Julia you better back me up on this or I'll hate you the rest of the semester.  So I said she really didn't have any up.  Jen texted me two seconds later saying thanks for backing me up. And I just said she isn't stupid like you think she is. And Jen just said, whatever. Another thing that bothered me so badly is that when Jens mom would talk to her, Jen would practically yell at her or she wouldn't talk at all! Jen would just sit there like the world was over snapping at her mom whenever she asked something.  Her mom suggested that they go see her grandparents. When Jen came back to the dorm she started complaining about how much her grandpa bothered her! I was so sick of he always doing this so I looked at her, and said, "You know what?! My grandpa drived me crazy sometimes, but he passed away this last year! I don't want to hear you complaining about your grandparents anymore, because you are going to miss them like crazy! Just stop." She just sat there like "Oh my gosh I can't believe she just said that to me!" She is throwing away her family! Does she want to go on with her life getting through everything without the suport of her family? Her parents love her so much and she doesn't even care! Geez! Her parents call her all the time just to talk! My parents live 2 hours away, but I hardly ever hear from them! I wanted my mom to see me for parents weekend, but she and my dad went out of town.  Her attitude toward her parents makes me so sad! I hope I never treated my mom and dad as bad as she does.  Its completely ridiculous! I love my parents! I'm sorry if I was ever a brat at times. Parents deserve a whole lot better than bratty kids who don't care about them at all when they would do anything for them to be happy, and would do anything to go see them! Ugh, I was very annoyed this whole weekend. It was very sad! I love you mom, dad, grandma and grandpa!

Fear

                 Last night I had to face a huge fear of mine.....a Haunted Corn Maze! I know this sounds stupid coming from an 18 year old who has never been to one in her life, but its true. A few times when I was younger like 2 or 3, my dad or some of his friends would come over but they would put masks on to scare my mom and I.  Well, little did he know that that incident would haunt me for life! This little mask episode led me to have nightmares about clowns for the first 6-7 years of my life. I couldn't be near mascots without punching them in the face.  Chuck-E-Cheese scared the crap out of me! My mom had to walk me on the other side of the mall so I wouldn't see the clown.  Finally one day though, I faced that fear, and went and talked to the clown.  I decided I wasn't going to be scared anymore! I got over that sort of thing! I mean I watch scary movies all the time, murder TV shows, read crazy messed up freaky books and I have no problem, but throw me in a corn maze....you better watch out....
                 I already have a problem with corn mazes right off the bat. I get so claustrophobic in those things.  I don't know why people think they are fun, because I just want to get out.  I don't like not being able to know where I need to go, and with the corn enclosing around me, suffocating any hope of escape, I have a very hard time having "fun" in them.  Last night was my worst nightmare. Masks and mazes combined.  The very first man we saw just jumped out at us, and I thought hey this won't be too bad. But then came the Ring Wrath (Pardon the Lord of The Rings reference but, that's what he looked like.) with a chain saw that chased me....I was not a happy camper but I did laugh hysterically, because it was a little funny to see everyone else's reactions. I did NOT want to keep going! I wanted to turn around and walk right back out of this horror! But OH NO! we HAD to keep going! So we kept walking. I refused to be in the front and the back! Cause I mean in the front you have be the first one to see the people, in the back, they could creep up from behind and scare you even more! One of them did that to me and I yelped! We were walking through this little black box thing, and this guy popped out and scared us. Well we kept walking thinking that he would go away, but he didn't so I turned around when we were deciding which way to go and he was right there, staring at me. So, we ran. Another instance were that happened was with a CLOWN!!! (Little rant! Why are clowns supposed to be funny? Even normal clowns are scary looking! I think whoever made the clown thing up just wanted the whole world to be unstable when they saw a clown...anyways) this clown popped out and scared us! We were all screaming cause I mean its an evil clown. So we ran, then we had to stop because there was a box up ahead and we knew that something would be in there (surprisingly there wasn't anything)  So as we were hesitating the clown took the time to sneak up on us....Elise and Tanner turned around and screamed so loud! It was so scary!!! Ahhh clowns go away! I think what makes it worse when these people scare you is that they just stand there watching you and will walk behind you making no noise.  As you walk away you can look back and they just are there, silent, ever watching. Its so creepy. Ugh anyways, during the first part of the maze I was a wreck. I couldn't feel my hands because I was holding on to my sweatshirt very very very tightly! I was breathing like I had run a marathon! If anyone touched me I almost punched them in the face! It was so great! But by the end I had relaxed enough to feel my hands and to not punch people in the face! :) I walked out of that corn maze feeling like a million bucks! I had done it! I had made it through a haunted corn maze without peeing my pants or killing anyone! :) It was pretty fun! But given my opinion I'd rather just watch a scary movie or read a scary book....no masks...and definitely NO CORN!!!!!!

Hamster

"It is a Belgian Hampster!" ~Manuel from Fawlty Towers.  Can I just mention how hard it is to be living with a hamster named Jen! Let alone hard to pass our cleaning check because she won't vacuum the floor after all her nibbling.... These are all over the room!!!!! EVEN ON MY SIDE OF THE ROOM!!! ALL OVER!!! On saturdays the only way she will leave the room is if I invite her to hang out with me! This causes her to sleep all day, with no windows open and no air running making the room reek....I can honestly say I live with a hamster....she does have rats at home....

Dumpster Diving, Donuts, and Dayna

On Sunday night, Tanner gave Dayna the wonderful idea of going to Krispy Cream to dumpster dive for the left over donuts.  He told us that the donut guys throw the donuts out at about 2 in the morning.  So there we were, sitting in my car trying not to be seen. (Tanner also said they wouldn't throw them out if they saw people waiting.) We were laughing and laughing and laughing.  We were all in our slap happy stage and everything was hilarious. Anyways, 2:25 roles around no donuts.  So Dayna, Elise and Kyler went out in the pouring rain (Yes it was pouring.) and jumped in the dumpster and pulled out a garbage bag full of donuts.  Needless to say, I did not partake in eating these donuts.  Dayna, Elise, and Kyler, were chowing down on squashed, old, trash donuts.  It was quite disgusting. But a super fun night!  

Its hard to sleep when you're smiling! :)

Yesterday my very best friend Dayna came to visit me! When she hopped into bed with me I had already been asleep. So I woke up to mumble, did you kiss Kyler and all that juicy stuff.  After I realized that she was here, with me, in my room, at school, visiting, I immediately woke up! We both just started smiling! All traces of sleep were gone.  We started giggling like little, well, school girls! :) We realized it was 2:45 A.M. and needed to go to sleep.  So there we were, two girls in a tiny twin bed, trying to fall asleep. After a few minutes Dayna said, "You know, it's kind of hard to sleep when you're smiling." We then would go back and forth from smiling and giggling.  Eventually we were sound asleep smiling! I'm pretty sure we were both smiling all night long! :)  I love Dayna! :)

Old Age

On sunday when I went to the nursing home to sing, I had the wonderful experience of meeting a woman who was 106 1/2 years old!!!! I think the only reason she was in the nursing home is because no one in her family wanted to make sure she was ok, or let her live with them. She was so healthy and could easily live for a few more years! It made me very happy to bring a little bit of joy into these wonderful peoples lives. They are so lonely most of the time, just sitting in their rooms watching TV or playing bingo with other old people. I found this poem about old age.

Margaret E. Sangster (1838-1912)

When I am Old --

When I am old and drenched in worlds of sadness,
And wear a lacy cap upon my head;
When, looking past the future's singing gladness,
I linger, wistful, in the years long dead.

When I am old, and young folk all about me,
Speak softly of religion, when they speak,

When parties are a grand success without me;
And when my laugh is fluttering and weak --

Will I then be content to raise my glances,

Serenely to the cloud-entangled sky?

And will I be content to watch at dances,

Without a heartbreak, as the hours pass by?

Or when I see young lovers' fingers twine,

remember, dear, your lips on mine?

I just want to be able to look back on my life when I am old (maybe not 106) and be able to remember all the good times I have had as a young whipper snapper!!! Life live folks! :)

14Will

Vegetarian

I have decided to go vegetarian, at least when I eat at the Cannon Center. I never really realized how much better organic and fresh meat tasted until now. The meat is so disgusting and sometimes I can't even tell what planet it is from. So, until I get home I will not be touching the meat here! Oh, another thing that makes me sad is that I don't have a kitchen. You know how hard it is not to eat junk when I can't make myself bruschetta late at night when I've got the munchies for some REAL food! But one of my friends lives at Heritage so hopefully I can use her kitchen every once and a while, and make some enchiladas with REAL chicken....anyways....Long story short I don't like the Cannon Center! :(

Homecoming! Yay BYU!!!!

So, yesterday was homecoming! Woot ya! But I was very frustrated and upset although we did win and all that good stuff. But I had worked so hard to get a ticket for my roommate. I had spent all day freezing my butt off for her and the horse project, driving her all over the place, buying her In-n-out Burger, and does she thank me....NO!!!! The whole entire way home she was going on and on about how her Grandpa drives her crazy cause he talks so much! And I was just so sick of it I just said, Well enjoy it while you can cause one day he'll be gone and you won't be able to talk to him. You're so lucky you still can. Thank goodness that shut her up for a bit. So I force her to come to the game, I mean honestly its the least she can do, I worked hard to get her that ticket. There we are sitting there watching the game, I'm enjoying myself immensely, just living the college life, and she just sits there doing nothing. No cheering, no "Oh thanks Julia, I'm so glad you got me this ticket I really appreciate it...." just silence.... So directly after half-time, after she has recored the whole entire band performance, after screaming her head off for them, she proceeds to start "shivering." She then says we need to go home now, I'm freezing to death. And I was just thinking to myself, welcome to Utah, its not that cold, you're just sitting on your tush not even trying to get into the spirit of things, I've been putting up with your poop all day, the least you can do is sit here and watch the rest of the game! But oh no!!!! That isn't the plan in her book. So she leaves and my friend Ashley-Brooke wouldn't answer her phone, so I was sitting there in the stadium looking like an idiot. The people next to me were too involved in kissing to talk to, let alone, even introduce myself :P so I went home and had to watch the rest of the game on my computer. :( I was very frustrated, I mean I am so nice to my roommate, I do things with her all the time, heck I drive her to freaking Highland, why can't she be at least grateful for some of the things I do. But nonetheless, it was a great game! Awesome plays, great interceptions, just all in all a good game! Final score: 29-16! YAY COUGARS!!!!! :)

Courage Reins Day#1

So, today was the first day of volunteering at Courage Reins, a therapeutic riding center for children with disabilities. First off, it was freezing cold! Secondly, for the tasks you have to complete one would think that the volunteers would be older. You as a volunteer have to take care of special needs children and their safety depends on you. Needless to say, most of the volunteers were 14, and full of immature drama as well as barn drama. The girls were rude and stuck up. They only cared about getting hours so they could ride later that day/week. The one lesson I helped with the girls were complaining the whole time about certain girls in the barn. They weren't even watching the child or the horse. One time we had to stop and the lead walker (the girl leading the horse) pulled up right against the wall giving me an inch from being squished. They were not paying attention to the instructor as she told them to help the boy sign stop and go. It was really annoying to be honest. Why can't people like helping just for the helping aspect, not just getting hours so they can ride? Jen can't wait to ride all the time, but at the rate this certification thing is moving (slower than a penguin carrying a bucket of molasses in Vermont) it will take us a very long time, if at all the girls will even let us ride. :P I was also not too impressed with the horses. You would also think that these horses would be very well trained and very gentle considering their use. Unfortunately they became very agitated very easily and were not as well behaved as they could have been. They also weren't the healthiest looking horses I've ever seen. The lessons however, were very nice. It felt so nice to have these poor kids happy and enjoying life, doing things other kids can do. :) We will just have to see how it goes, because I don't want to spend from 9-3 sweeping barns, watching out for rude little drama filled girls. Its somewhat annoying because I was very excited to volunteer but now, I am uncertain about if it's worth all the work to help a child in a lesson for 15 minutes after freezing to death for 4 hours, smelling like horse, being bossed around by bratty girls, and cleaning, and cleaning, and cleaning....I wouldn't mind it if those girls didn't treat me like I was 13 too or if they were older girls. But what can you do?

That Awkward Moment When....

I just wanted to share a few awkward moments that have happened here thus far at BYU. Please, free feel to enjoy....

That awkward moment when your R.A. finds people making out and posts about it all over Facebook! Poor girl in room 1220. :)

That awkward moment (well actually disgusting moment) when you find a fly in your lettuce! :(

That awkward moment when Kyler tells a joke about a man in a wheelchair right as a man in a wheel chair rolls by.....

That awkward moment when the Asian girl in your french class can't pronounce anything right no matter how hard she tries.

That awkward moment when you wake up in the middle of the night because your roommate was talking about something.

That awkward moment when someone gets proposed to in a class you're in and they don't even kiss each other....just a hug....only at BYU....

That awkward moment when you start to cross the street when the light is yellow, and everyone condemns you right then and there with their dirty looks....

That awkward moment when you're singing in the shower and everyone hears you....

That awkward moment when you're in the shower for 5 minutes and the suite mate from next door who never even tries to talk to you complains that you're in there for too long...um, excuse me its my shower time, leave me alone....

That awkward moment when you're TA flirts with someone in your class....who knows though, it worked for my mom and dad....

That awkward moment when Kyler wants to see a scary movie and you have no desire whatsoever!

That awkward moment whey Kyler is trying to figure out someones nationality and claims he could pull off any nationality but black....(he is kinda full of himself haha)

That awkward moment when you forget someones name... :-/ it doesn't help that you went to high school with said person....

That awkward moment when your roommate forces you to watch the third twilight movie and you laugh the whole time cause its so cheesy and awful and she bawls at the end cause its beautiful.... (Can't wait to see the new one at MIDNIGHT! :P Kill me!)

That awkward moment when your french class finds out you're only 17....

That awkward moment when ANYONE finds out I'm only 17....

That awkward moment when Kyler lists his man crushes....

That awkward moment when you go swimming and your roommate can't swim too well....

That awkward moment when you are singing everything you say and your roommate thinks you're stupid. :(

That awkward sad moment when your sister forgets to write on your wall an inside joke, then proceeds to tell you that she is going to Maryland! :(

That awkward moment when you watch Dirty Dancing 2 times in a row and you don't even like the movie too much.

That awkward moment when your roommate tells you that you sneeze way too much....

That awkward moment when your roommate proceeds to tell you that you like TV shows/movies too much....well honey you're addicted to the internet and skype :P and minecraft.

That awkward moment when your little brothers and your roommate play the same computer game.

And last but not least that awkward moment when your roommate tells you that you talked in your sleep....I guess she isn't the only crazy one! :)

Whilst Climbing the Y, It Can Rain, and You Can See Scary Spiders!

Yesterday Jen and I decided to hike to the top of the Y! It was quiet an adventure! Not only did it rain as soon as we got ot the top, but we saw a tarantula…..it was really yucky but super awesome! Needless to say, Jen screamed, then we both proceeded to try and get a super nice close up! J The hike was steeper than I thought it would be. And we had to stop every um lets see….five minutes….. I wonder Y? :-P hehe pun….anyways....someone *ahem* is not in shape and had to stop every 2 feet to catch her breath! It was probably because she was screaming so much. :)

A "Bee"coming trait!

The other day, my roommate and I were eating outside of the Cannon Center (The cafeteria type place for the dorms.) We were eating outside and a bee started flying around her! She got up and started screaming and running around outside of the cannon center patio. At first I had no idea what was going on! I was so confused to see this crazy girl, who is supposed to by my roommate, though at that moment I wanted to crawl under a rock and die! So I calmly told her that if it you didn't bother it, it wouldn't bother her! And if it made her feel any better we would move to a different table! So we move tables and it happens AGAIN! This time she yells louder and runs around even more like a chicken with it's head cut off! So, I being the frustrated soul that I am said, "What the heck, we'll eat inside! Just stop yelling!" Well, while this drama was going on, I'm sure everyone in the cannon was laughing, but a bee crawled into my chicken! So I quickly too my plate to the dish drop off area! I was so afraid that if she saw it in the Cannon she would start running around and screaming IN the cannon! Needless to say, I still haven't made any new friends and its been 6 weeks. I think everyone knows my roommate as the bee girl and will probably be scared away forever! :( Oh well, more time to study for me!

Untitled #3

I've been thinking about starting a blog for a while now, you know just to keep people up to speed on my life I guess. Since college makes one very busy, this is the easiest way I could think of to tell lots of people what is going on! You might question why my blog is titled what it is. I named it Untitled for 1) cause I had no idea what to name it (and will probably change it later when I do) 2) Mr. Baer, whenever asking what our songs were called in my song writing class would always say its Untitled #(Insert any number you fancy here) if we didn't know what to name it. :) So here's a tribute to one of the best Choir directors I have ever known! :) at least until I find another title I like! :)